The Greedy Gut of Mine

2009-05-09T02:33:00.003+08:00

KNN u will only think of me when you have nobody else to accompany you.

I'm ur spare?

Sorry I'm not going to comply your last minute 'date'.

Sorry, I've got no wishes to do so

and

I'm not obliged to.

Lovie lovie

2009-03-14T03:09:00.002+08:00

OMG, here i'm blogging with my new love. Song Vaio TZ37 Cystal Pink!

Weighing only like some 1.2kg, I guess i'll love going to school from now on.

Even though I'm still not very used to it.

Shall retrieve my pictures from my dead laptop before I start blogging on the dead blog=P

Love my new lg renoir too=)

Damn the IT fair. Caused me to spend like some $2500.

OMFGGGGGGGG

2009-02-16T05:53:00.003+08:00

OH MI GOSH, I'M STILL STUCK AT NEW YEAR DAY, CNY, VDAY!

have uploaded the pictures, but still lazy to blog. too many=P

leave it aside first. Hospital appointment in another 6hrs =(

wait lah hor, wait lah.

OMFG

2009-01-14T02:26:00.001+08:00

OMG

I'm feeling damn bloody nervous.

FTT in 12hr's time.

Everyone, well almost, is thinking that I'm going to fail=(

No confidence.

school rocks

2009-01-08T14:19:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL SUCKS!

I CANT WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS TO COME

I keep wanting to sleep during the noon time, so I guess I have not got used to the school timing=(

BUT I did woke up on time, reached school on time and did not skipped, for 3 consecutive days.

I'm so proud of myself. =))

Resolution and wishes

2009-01-01T05:37:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

KISS 2008 GOODBYE AND WELCOME THE BRAND NEW YEAR, 2009!

My new year resolutions:

1) Attend school regularly

2) Take very good care of my health

3) Quit smoking (Related to point 2)

4) Work and money!

5) To be more feminine, cos my dear complains!

6) Have more sense of responsible- pertaining to all aspects

7) Try not to talk back to parents and deardear

I think that's about it, then i'll proceed to my wishes!

1) Good relationships- deardear, family, friends

2) Pass all my modules and semesters

3) Good HBA1C

4) Dear to find a very good job real soon after his present one and he does not need to go back to Ipoh, for his work permit. PLEASE.

5)Money!

6)Able to achieve good results in whatever I do

7) Win in MJ, for both me and dear.

Ok, i think tt's about it. I'm going to sleep now, will post up pictures about my damn delicious dishes which I cooked just 8 hours ago, soon

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2008-12-31T04:49:00.002+08:00

ITS THE NEW YEAR EVE NOW AT 5.00AM, SO I'M GOING TO BE EARLY IN SAYING...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!

behold for my damn delicious dishes.

be back after 2008.

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS

2008-12-30T04:47:00.017+08:00

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS!

Finally done with the uploads. Wow, 5.58am.

Christmas tree at C.Airport on dont know what day- after trip to dempsey hill's ben n jerry.

Its like 2am in the morning.

Xmas with BB Part 1

Yup, Bugis.

Lovelove

Crooked Christmas tree=\

Did some window-shopping around.

Xmas with BB Part2

21.12.08 10pm, Before going out:

Cant remember what was we watching on that night, which makes us unrelectant to go out.

OFF WE GO TO TOWN!

The visa card christmas tree

The CoCaCola christmas tree, eh no, not tree.

I LOVE THIS!

Why is a huge cupcake doing on the street?

I had a hard time persuading him to take pic with me, you know guys...

A security guard offered to help us take photos. Initially we worried that he would run away with my cam, cos where can wr find such nice souls to help us take photos unconditionally? So, his motive was a cigarette stick. =.=

I have the ah lian factor, in me.

I love the lights.

Xmas with BB Part3

Our 交杯巧克力

This is what he gave me this christmas, a handmade-card, which made me laugh from my heart.

Our fruit wine plus the photoframe i made for him.

Damn excited, cause dear's not working on the 31st! HIPEE!

Btw, i'm done with my cny shopping, left with hair and facial only=)))

patience

2008-12-29T05:19:00.002+08:00

Please be patient while I take my own sweet time to upload the xmas photos and other stuffs.

I've got something MORE IMPORTANT to do now, which is searching for recipes, cos I'm going to cook on 31st Dec. =)

BB's gg to take alot of days off work to accompany me, send me to school (Hopefully?!), fetch me from school. YEAH!!!

FINALLY!

2008-12-16T03:15:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of update, been busy.

Busy with... sleeping!
LOL

ANYWAY, I PASSED MY BTT, first attempt leh!

I thought that I would fail cause I did not understand the turning etc.

But anyway anyway, I PASSED, and got my PDL! And booked my FTT=)

I think I'm too anxious about my driving licence...

Erm nothing much to say now, bye!

Suddenly...

2008-11-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

It's rather sudden, Baby's paternal grandmother passed away, so he'll be away for some 3 to 4 days. =(

So that will also means that we will not be getting married in 3 years time.

I guess I'll miss him alot alot, not guess, but definitely.

Happy Happy trip

2008-11-18T17:39:00.014+08:00

The long awaiting-post. The most dramatic trip ever.

How do we arrive to Segamat?

We drove all the way up. THAT'S NOTHING TOO EXCITED! BUT SOMETHING EXCITING HAPPENED ALONG THE WAY!

We got lost in Johor. Have u got any idea how big Johor is? Approx. 4 times bigger than of Spore! So we got lost, and what we saw was a way back time place, like the 70s-80s of Spore. It is scary to have a Lancer and Nissan Sunny in the middle of the road, together with old proton Malaysian cars.

So I had to use the map, GPS went wrong and was the one which caused everything. Called up the Uncle living in Segamat for directions. He said, 'It is better for you all to continue your journey in the TUAS direction, cause, it will take HOURS to reach, besides, the road will be damn dark cause there is NO road lights.'. Yea, that's what he said.

We got back to the right track- North Southern Expressway, with my directing. We reached YongPing. Then we went into the small road- two way single lane road, with no road lights.

AND TADAH! SEGAMAT!

Had dinner at my friend's ah ma house, went to check in hotel, had beauty sleep.

Woke up, had the most delicious Bak Ku Teh in my 18years of life, went to ah ma house again, then off we go again!

The 2nd part of journey.

The beautiful sceneries along the way.

Here reach, MALACCA!

We went up to st Paul's, not St James.

Beautiful View from up there, we climbed all the way up!

Inside St James, no, St Pauls

Loving Dad n Mum.

Outside the church.

Then we go to this

Anticipating

Very anticipating...

TADAH!

Donno what is it? BIRD NEST EGG TARDS!

Landmark.

I didnt know that there's a river there, cause its my second visit there.

Holland V!

Nice? haha I'm the photographer

Went to the museum

Overview of Malacca

Uncle, I caught u Jaywalking, about.

A plane in the middle of the city

Parking coupon of Malaysia!

Last few glimsps of Malacca

I going to watch tv now, 溏心风暴之家好月圆

Genting trip.

2008-11-12T03:05:00.004+08:00

Sorry, havent been blogging much, cause I'm in and out of Spore recently, and rather busy, previously with PP, I PASSED KNNCCB. Lao Niang buy new pointed shoe and endured the pain, buy new work pants, shirt lor.

Luckily I passed. Assessor's comment: ' I like your style of presentation, very confident. No doubt about that. ..... ..... ' WAHAHA of course la, I CYNDEE LEH.

Genting trip- Oct 25th to 27th

Was fogging when we arrived.

Nice sceneries

Not Jay and Patty Hou

Delicious Mac breakfast.

was my uncle's bday

So we got him an ice-cream cake

munching ice cream cake outside the hotel, grrrr colddddddddddd

I went into the casino! four times! lost money at table and jackpot, S$120. =( nvm shall make a killing the next time. WAIT FOR ME.

Gained lots of fats due to the food there.

Basically nothing too exciting about the Genting trip. The exciting one is on the next post. Melaka-Segamat Trip. Machiam like movie like that.

Behold for now that I'm done with 2 posts 'briefly'. Will be editing every now and then, provided I remember anything that I have left out.

bady 08

2008-11-12T02:26:00.007+08:00

Alright, after such a long wait, its finally my bday post.

less words, photos please.

My cake from baby.

Celebration on the mahjong table, just like last year. -.-

Wasnt happy on 22nd Oct.

23rdOct, wasnt happy either.

Rushed home before 12, to celebrate with my family.

And of course, cam-whoring has to take place before everything starts.

with my sisters

With my loving dad and mum.

Happy Family, upon the completion of Jonathan

24th Oct, legal party night.

My roses from my baby

My darling, thanks for coming down despite the fact that you were alr v tired from work.

My virgin kiss to female.

Grace. If u're reading this, thanks for the free tix =)

My dearest bitch.

heehee

Wait

2008-11-04T11:10:00.002+08:00

I know I havent been blogging. Got lots to blog about- Bday, Genting trip etc.

Wait till I finish editing the photos (Lightings and rotating).

I'm going to demand a recelebration of my bday from dear.

Ya wait, happily wait.

my bday my bday my bday my bday

2008-10-20T15:19:00.004+08:00

I have not started to celebrate my damn 18th big day.

Have yet to receive any present.

Have yet to receive the LV bag from dearie. Still waiting for stock. Damn it.

People's asking me what I want. 我不知懂！
Have told WL what I want.

For others,
Give me cash, better =)

Party nearing, excited to know how many people will be turning up. Dunno if Dear's going, even though he says he's not going =(

Genting trip nearing. EXCITED!

Finally a pic post.

2008-10-14T12:02:00.004+08:00

My dearest Mummy's bday. She may be irritating at times, nags nags and nagged, but still....

you know...

Mummy with Auntie n Kellie.

Soon after Mummy's bday, its our beloved doggie dog dog Jonathan's Bday!

Bought him to Simei Pet safari

See him shopping.

This ass dog pee-ed at pet safari-.-

Which one to buy neh?

Then my ex-classmate bday.

SeoulGarden.

With the bday boy

Went shopping.

Mummy bought this for me

While I brought this for dear. Incanto leh. My one aigner only lor.

Outing with Sherlyn. At Ashton.

I told you that I'm TALL. Now u believe?

My dearest.

=)

Underwater World trip

Not gg to post every single photo up. Too many to do so.

Going to meet up dear dear later on. Miss him.That Da-Bian Zhu.

Next blog post: Cam-whoring.

我想回到从前

2008-10-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

从来没有过这种爱恨难的感觉。

面对着一段也许没有结果的恋情

不知道到底该不该放手

我很想要回到从前的我们

真的很想

回到从前。

我不能忍受你对我的冷漠

random

2008-10-05T03:41:00.003+08:00

I've got lots to blog, but I'm feeling so down till I felt that my life is in such a mess, and I might as well end it and start over anew, But I do know that I cant jolly well do that. Impossible.

I've uploaded ALL the photos from my hp to my laptop, all at one go. Which include my ex-classmate bday celebration (like some 2 months ago), outing with Sherlyn, shopping victories, 1 and 1/2 year anniversary, Mum's bday, Jonathan's bday (My dog) and lastly underwater world trip. I'll try to blog everything at one go=) seemed impossible but it is possible, cos alot of events only have 1 or 2 pics=) HAHA scheming.

Anyway, just quarrelled, so I'm not supposed to msg or call him, or go and find him, not even on his off day, until he cools down.

I guess its not good to cry on your chinese bday. So perhaps I'll have another bad year ahead.

Oh my, someone tell me, I havent done anything THAT bad have I?

Funny things about me.

2008-09-21T11:24:00.005+08:00

Alright, Let's do something else other than updates.

Some funny things about me:

1. Likes to have tibits during meal times and meals during snack time.

2. When others ask me what would I like to have for breakfast/lunch/dinner/supper, I'll say 'anything' but when they say 'alright let's eat at xxx', I'll say 'eee, dowan la, I dowan this'. -.-

3. Not eating even when I'm hungry.

4. Awake when other's asleep and asleep when other's awake. I like sleeping in the day.

5. Saying funny things or irrelevent things at wrong timings.

6. Fickle-minded. Very.

7. Laugh when I'm not supposed to, or when I alone.

8. Doing things when I jolly well know that I will regret later on. Mostly.

9. Stalking others. NO no no, joking. Thats what others said.

10. Not greeting when starting a conversation. Thats what others said too. =)

11. Being Odd-one out. I guess that's the main thing about this post.

=)

Yup yup yup

2008-09-21T10:51:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Been lazy.

I'm seldom awake at such timings, with such a beautiful weather, perfect for dating at the beach. Too bad he's at work=(

Alright fine then. Shant blame him.

Resubmitted PP report. Phew.

Been troubling over laptops issues, get this or get that? Vaio or Fujitsu or HP?

LV's done.

Been feeling unwell for the past 4 days. Down with gastric and 4 meals for 4 days. =) yes i'm THAT powerful.

many things have been on my mind, ever since what he said last night (Not bf).
Seems like he's trying very hard to sow discord.
Dunno what's his motive.
Tried very hard to tell myself not to mind about it
But I'm still very bothered, cant get his words out of my head.

Ya, so this is about updates for my recent.

Shant be blogging often for now. But I'll still be online.

Yup.

Anticipating

2008-09-11T15:47:00.003+08:00

I cant believe I've not been clubbing for some 8months

New Laptop is coming ON THE WAY=)

LV BAG IS ALSO ON THE WAY=)

Isnt all these worth anticipating?

Well, I feel that they do

Update

2008-09-09T08:12:00.003+08:00

Quick Update.

Have been lazy recently. Cant believe its only the 4th day of school. I still have some 60 more days to go. New class is ok, quite fine, HH with me=)

Laptop is working fine when it is not supposed to.

Relationship with baby is doing great

Relationship with family so far so good

Gambling luck is back! Mahjong won money

School also so far so good, except for the fact that I'm late 3 days out of 4.

*Edited- I take back my words. The modules are driving me crazy. Its the continual of last semester and are getting more and more complicated. Immune system, Genetics, Biochem etc etc . OMFG.

Friends wise, still doing good.

So all in all, everything is going fine for me. Havent been shopping recently.

Event to blog about-- Holiday' MJ bday cum class outing, outing with sherlyn, gift i bought for baby (1 1/2 year anniversary)

Ya wait.

Great Deal

2008-08-28T03:46:00.003+08:00

Advertorial

http://www.flowerslovers.blogspot.com/

Having difficulties in finding gifts for males?

Valentine's?
Birthday?
Anniversary?
Celebration?

Every guy, I mean most guys, does not like receiving roses on special occassions, but not buying them anything would mean insincere to them. How contradicting, just like women. But, buying gifts for them can never be an easy job, especially when they are working while you're not.

Believe me, cause, I'm in such situation. I'm beginning to crack my brain thinking what to get for baby this christmas.

It's such a pain in the ass. Something practical, something within our budget, and something that he does not own. WHAT THE HELL WOULD IT BE?

Ok now, ladies, put yourself in guy's shoes. Roses for valentine and anniversary is a MUST. If not you can dump him. Guys who do not bother to buy you even a stalk of rose, is not worth wasting your time. ( I know a bouquet might be too expensive for some like students etc, especially vday, but a stalk is not too much.)

Guys buying roses for beloved ones. Want something different from others? Want something that your beloved ones can always keep by their side and can constantly look at them, while thinking of you? Well, roses can't do that. You mean roses will NOT wither? Definitely will. It will wither within a week.

Presenting to you:

http://www.flowerslovers.blogspot.com/

TADAH!

Nah- Perfect Gift.

This one also.

Neh, rochers can eat what. And the roses also wont wither, neither do they decompose. So no more worries. Besides, the prices are very ALRIGHT. Somemore now still got 10% until 31st Aug.

Plus, delivery to ANY MRT STATION during weekends. So students, no need to worry about it. It wont affect your studies. LOL

k bye.

The season of good news

2008-08-27T04:21:00.004+08:00

Good News No.1

As you can see, I just got my results for my 3rd semester. YEAH, PASSED !! AND I PASSED ALL 14 MODULES SO FAR!!! LOL ( i wondered why I still can pass all of them despite the frequent skipping of school)

Good News No.2

Since Daddy is not going to sponsor LV bag for my bday, Dear's going to! So, he's gg to contribute half of my first LV bag! I LOVE U DARLING, YOU HAVE JUST MADE THE BAG MORE MEANINGFUL FOR ME. MUACKS.

Mahjong: Won $30.
k bye.

BBF BDAY

2008-08-25T02:21:00.006+08:00

OH my, i too so long to blog about this. Pardon me, I've been very busy.

Please go to : www.flowerslovers.blogspot.com

Anyway its bout my BITCH's bday, 2 celebration in total.

Toa Payoh Lor 7, Blk XX #XX-XXX
26.7.08 3pm

She did all that.

Her 2 cakes

-,-

Behind Left to Right: Andy, Benji, Jeremy, Ken
Front: Bitch n Me.

Plus one more Wei hao.

Where got ppl like tt cut cake one???

HAHA RED WINE.

Its a good wine, mai siao siao hor.

Then MAHJONG!

Celebration 2, Before I start, that day I decided to skip school with her, thus I went over to her house to nap. While napping, she went to dye her hair black, because she was feeling bored while I slept. Then she complaint me of sleeping, not accompanying her, thus she did such thing. LOL

Spins

Group shot, while waiting.

Her 3rd bday cake from NYDC

Happy for this moment.

Dissorted cake, her face was on it a moment ago.

K bye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!

2008-08-02T10:04:00.003+08:00

DEAR'S BDAY!

Edited- he refuses to let me post the picture of him singing. LOL

I took a total of 7 days to blog on this =P, well at least its better than my new year+valentine+year anni post. =)

22ND JULY
2 parts in total. first at QP Bar. Main theme of the night : ACT CUTE

Him with his room-mates and room neighbour.

Me with his room-neighbour's gf, Na-Jie

CHEERS!

I bought the cake without telling him.

Again. Room-mate plus friend.

Double couple

Group photo: From Left- Friend, Alec(Room Neighbour), Fiona(Room Neighbour gf), ME, BF, Ah San (Room mate)

Getting ready to take the candle out of the cake using his mouth
There he go!

Cutting cake

So rare of him to take photo with me. ACT CUTE TAKE 1

ACT CUTE TAKE 2

3

Wah lao, alr 20 plus, some 30 plus already

still act cute until like that

again=.=

23RD JULY

threatre by the bay, him being very angry because we didnt know what to feast on for his bday, after walking for some 1, 2 hr.

Finally decided on Tony Roma

Yeah!

Then we went for:

SPORE FLYER!

Beware: LOTS of PHOTOS. ALOT.

LOVE LOVE LOVE!

Kissed when we reached the highest point of the ride.

Night sceneries:

STOP!!!!!!
Decided not to post anymore photos. This post took me too long to complete.

Thoughts Boyfriend's bday:

It's so special on that day, I mean the feeling that I had. It's like the day of your most beloved is borned. 26 years ago, he was brought to this Earth. Such a special day, to spend with. I'm glad that we managed to squeeze some time out of our hectic schedule, or rather HIS.

Gave him the bday card that I've made, I'm shocked that he placed it next to his bed, and told me he wants to see it everyday when he falls asleep, and when he wakes up every morning.

Gave him the present, shocked that he told me that he DO NOT BELIEVE that I did the engravings. And I was very happy that he like the present and use it.

Even through we went through cold war during the last few days, but still glad that we made it, still glad that we make it through, not giving up on each other. Maybe that's one of the main thing about LOVE, not giving up on each other, no matter what happens.

I LOVE YOU

Next post, YVONNE's BDAY. I've yet to receive photos from her.

rainbow after the rain

2008-07-31T01:46:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO rainbow after the rain=) We made it. And now I love him more than ever. =)

Anyway supposed to blog about dear's bday celebration, and not forgetting yvonne's bday.

But I have yet to receive photos from yvonne. (Another reason is me being lazy) LOL

Really alot alot of photos.

soon soon soon. weekend ok? =)

AND MAHJONG, I DI-HU-ED! EARNED MYSELF $30 JUST ONE ROUND. AND I PLAYED WITH PROFESSIONAL GAMBLERS WHO GAMBLED ALMOST EVERYDAY. =)

WAHAHAHAHAHA

i just cant stop laughing.

contradiction

2008-07-27T03:38:00.003+08:00

I know that this post is supposed to be the post about his birthday, as promised.

But I really do not have the mood to blog about it now. I'm feeling really very very low.

Quarrel over trivial matter.

I do not know the reason of your distantness towards me.

You said you needed sometime to be alone.

Fine.

I can no longer cry, and yet I still could feel the ache in my heart.

The pain is very true.

I fear losing you, yet I know I can live off better without you.

I fear, very fear.

You knew that by throwing me into coldness, would hurt me, and yet you still chose to do so.

You knew that I needed a reason towards your behaviour, but you refused to answer me.

How much I yearn for a sense of security

I can lose you but I cant lose you.

For fear that I might miss out the love of my life.

suprises

2008-07-19T03:25:00.002+08:00

I have rebonded my hair, plus a new spec to go with it.
And i kinda regretted, cos the new hairstyle doesnt suit me, and I'm having split ends. =(

Anyway, dear's bday is nearing, made him this picture as a bday card.

Oh my, I'm so proud of myself, 180++ pictures. =))) I'm sure he WILL like it. Well, he better do.

Plans
Bdaydinner- Swensens, he requested. Wanted to bring him to the one @ raffles place 69th floor, but he didnt want me to spend too much, besides I'm still saving money for LV

Before clock strike 12, will be with his friends, most probably drinking, at pub.

Actual Bday- Spore Flyer, provided that it doesnt rain.

Bday present - a zippo lighter my engravings, done by me, MYSELF.

Well, since he collects special lighters, so I was thinking why not I get him this?

The person was like, 'HUH, u want to play with $54? Are you sure? It's the first time I ever come across someone who want to do the engraving themself.'

special wat.

Ya, so I did it, pictures next time, sorry. Will most probably the next post, which will most likely a post about his bday.

Grades had been infested with Xs. =( like i said, skpping school has gradually becoming a habit of mine. Sick of it, I promised dear and myself to attend school!

SHIT, border line pass again.

come on

2008-07-11T10:27:00.002+08:00

BEHOLD

for the new change.

FUNNY.

2008-07-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

I don't know if I should be involved or not, but I find it ridiculous. Damn funny.

There's this person name it (S). Comment on my fren's fren's blog on the topic of lesbianism.

Here's what he wrote:
I do NOT “personally attack” you….i attack the insulting ‘choice’ you’ve made….the offensive “lifestyle” you are indulging in.“lesbianism” is a personal attack upon me…….upon all real men ! Upon nature and virtue !

And as you talk about making a bad choice….and facing the consequences…..while you all do this , make this bad choice……WE suffer the consequences…….males suffer the consequences……I suffer the consequences !

"lesbianism" , "homosexuality" , "racism" , "drug dealing" , "thievery"........any selfish , irresponsible behaviour is a choice , a choice based on...

“Give you the right to be wrong ” ?…who has the “right” to be wrong ?You are being wrong…and this “right” is making us suffer….and it is , most definitely , making for consequences for yourselves….and that is wrong.

And the list goes on.

Alright here I go:

First thing first, YOU ARE NOT GOD.

What makes you think u can comment on others' choice? Who are you? What right do you have to say who's right who's wrong?

You are not even their parents, so what right have you got to comment? I do not think its a nice thing to spam so furiously on someone's blog, commenting on their behaviour when you are not even related.

How has their 'rights' made you suffered? You should only say that when ALL the girls in the world turned lesbians, only then you suffer. Like what you said, racism, drug dealing etc is a choice, so what has it got to do with you? I do not see a link in your comments.

Please do not preach over here. I know that somehow you are very bothered by them, but whatever choices they made, IS THEIR choice and the consequences will only fall on themselves and the impact will only be on their family and themselves.

I suppose your concern would only be made valid when more than say, 50% of female population turn lebsians. Only then you worry, if not I do not see a problem over here in the situation NOW.

Yes, it might be a bad choice but that does not mean an excuse for you to comment on. Perhaps comment on your daughter instead (Provided you have one)

Choosing this path by their own will definitely means they are willing to bear the consequences, and you commenting that its a bad choice etc etc, showing damn disgusting concern as if their choices affected you, and my question is, 'IN WHAT WAY THEY AFFECTED YOU?'

And yes, you CAN show concern, but overly-concerned and interference to other's life should perhaps be a job of parents, NOT YOU.

AND EVEN IF YOU ARE GOD, GOD gave us choices to make in this period of time on Earth, and we definitely HAVE to pay for the things we have done. Ok, I ASSUME that you ARE GOD, I thought it is stated in the bible, that we do have choices? Since bible stated that we have the freedom, then why are you here commenting?

So, if you are not GOD, then why are you commenting when GOD's not commenting?

I do hope you do some reflection.

You

2008-06-27T05:10:00.001+08:00

I do not spend my birthday alone

I do not spend festives alone

I do not spend nights alone

I do not spend days alone

Even though you are not physically with me,

But I know you are always with me.

All because of YOU.

eventful

2008-06-23T15:28:00.004+08:00

What an eventful period I had.

Ever since school started, days were not kind to me, I couldnt get use to the timing when I had to get up.

Supposed to go for 4e4 gathering, but they wanted to go Mind's Cafe. So I went to 97 with dear to celebrate his fren's birthday instead. We fled when we heard the police came. Cause I'm underage. I wouldnt want my mum and dad to come and fetch me from Tanglin Police station.

Us (V)(V)

Group picture- too dark cos its' a CLUB! LOL

Us with the Birthday Boy

Over all, 97 is BORING but there was strip dance. The singers went up the bar-top and singed. The male singer went topless and he's a 30 year old plus. That's all. FULL STOP.

But Chivas was great. Yup, Chivas.

Chivas always better than coffee sold at cafes. =)

Had dinner at Mingles last night with family after inspecting the area of Elaine's future house. I think they might not be getting houses over that area. Cos its not convenient at all.

Had ribeye steak at Mingles, daddy mummy and willy was complaining that the food there was real expensive and the portions are real small. Anyway, stuffs at this kind of place are like this. But willy was a real disgrace by speaking outloud, saying things like, 'WAH, THIS IS NOT LOBSTER LOR, THIS IS HAY-PO' (Hay-po are larger prawns)
Sigh

Anyway, family have been quarelling much and very frequently and very often are big quarrels. I went out of the house at 10.30pm and reached home at 2.45am. And the quarrels were like going on everyday for a week.

Forget about it.

Happy Happy Happy

2008-06-15T06:00:00.003+08:00

Happy Father's Day!

Its 6am now and i just reached home from dear's. Hectic plus tiring night. MAHJONG.

I know I have not been blogging lately. The fact is, I've stayed at home almost EVERYDAY except for the shopping trip with sherlyn and short trip to malaysia. Oh ya, and a shopping trip to town with mum too=)

Went malaysia last week, a short one, for 4 hours. Spent S$200. Bought skin care products from SKINFOOD, 3 pairs of shoes (2 from Vinnci and 1 everblast) then some cosmetics and necklaces from watson, dinner at Kim Gary.

I'm sorry that no photos were taken during the trip because I did not bring my phone along. I find it rather useless to cos I do not have auto roaming.

Reason to why I'm staying at home rotting my days away is that I want to save money. I know that it's contradicting when I went shopping and spent, but Dear's BDAY is nearing AND i'm saving for my LV bag despite the fact that mum's sponsoring more than half and dear's most likely paying for the rest. WAHAHA WAKAKA I know that i'm very blessed=)

I'm feeling perfectly alright spending my days at home. I just realised that I can be happy at home too=) At least I have my bed with me, like almost all the time, and kitchen cardboards are packed with tibits=)))

Yup that's all, in another 24 hours' time, i'll be back in the school. No more watching of DVDs in the night=(

So near yet so far

2008-06-07T03:30:00.003+08:00

went shopping with her yesterday, bought 2 bottoms and 5 tops, spent $100 in all and dear gladly sponsored $50=) and Dad's $50 too=)))

Msia shopping trip cancelled.

Dear's not going to come back on time. Supposed to reach spore on monday morning but he couldnt get the train ticket so he will be reaching on monday's night=(((
So that's another 3 more days to see him instead of 2 more days

Quarrelled, oh nono, not quarrel, but voicing out all our unhappiness. So I promised to give him more freedom. No more calls when he's out with his friends=(
I cried, and he comforted me by singing, teasing and we were over the phone for more than an hour. I can imagine the calls cost LOL

Felt that he's so near yet so far. I felt him near me but he's actually back at ipoh(msia)

missing too much

2008-06-06T03:49:00.003+08:00

I am missing you terribly. Even though you are only going away for 3 days and its not the first time, but I still cant bear how much I missed you. Every minute is a torture. I wish I could fly over to you immediately, to end this sick feeling that has lingered in my heart for long.

I guess I'm relying on you too much, way too much.

I miss you. I really do.

r-a-n-d-o-m-n-e-s-s

2008-05-26T04:29:00.004+08:00

IT'S 4.29AM now as i'm typing this. Went to Geylang to see CHICKENS+supper which means super duper tired and yet I cant sleep now cos i need to wake up at 6am and I also know that I will not wake up on time if I choose to sleep now.

AHHH I'm supposed to use the weekend to study for UTs, but I ended up sleeping for 2 FULL DAYS=(

I feel like piercing my tongue and naval and tattoo my hip!

I know its very random.

Alright I don't know what to blog about now

Dear went for his superior's wedding dinner and I'm jealous cos' I'm not invited. =(

Yea that's all for the moment.

touches my heart

2008-05-18T05:35:00.006+08:00

Sichuan suffered a 7.8 great earthquake 6 days ago.

How serious is the 7.8 earthquake? Beijing, Taiwan, Hongkong, India, Nepal, Vietnam, Bangladesh and many other countries could feel the quake.

Caused great damages with almost the whole of Sichuan gone, leaving the entire place ruined, beyond salvage. The estimated damage inccurred is around US$20BILLION.

This deadly earthquake caused nearly 30,000 known deaths and estimated death toll could rise to 50,000.

Highways and many major entrances to the affected area were either damaged or blocked, this resulted in the late arrival of rescue troops.

Areas affected by the earthquake were mainly areas neglected and untouched by China's spectacular economic rise. That explains why the damage was this huge.

Many of which collapsed buildings are schools. Which means to say, many who were killed, are students of yours and my age, some even younger. According to news, a few class of kids in the kindergraden were having nap when the earthquake happened. Only a few of them made it out. They are only age between 3 to 5.

A teacher protect 4 students from the collapsing wall and died. Parent protected only child from falling wall and when the girl was being saved, she's already a orphan at the age of 3.

During this 6 days, 20 men from rescue troops reported injured and some deaths, after rescuing non stop for this few days.

Many parents lost their only child within a few minutes and similarly, many children became orphans within that few minutes.
Children survivors were saying that during the period of time when they were trapped, some of time were surround by dead bodies, which were their classmates and some saw their friends died in front of them.

How I wished I could go over. I cried when I saw the news. I've only been watching the news for this few days. This is currently my only concern. As I watch, as I sleep, as I eat, people there are trying very hard to keep themselves alive, waiting to be rescued, buried alive under tons of walls, people are trying very hard to search for survivors under the mess, people there are running out of food, water and equipments, doctors seeing survivor die in front of them due to the lack of medical equipments, nurses crying because they do not have enough medicines to help the survivors. You know, as I'm typing this, this is what they are facing over there.

Do they deserve this? No they do not. They did not pick their vegetables during their meal, they do not complain of school, they did not ask for the latest handphone model because some of them cant even afford to have one. They didnt get to choose where they would be born in, they didnt get to choose. They just do not deserve it.

Many are saying, none of my business, but let me ask u, dont you feel anything? Seeing so many deaths? Let me put it in this way, what will you feel if this happens in spore? (Even though very unlikly) Put yourself in others' shoes.

Children who survived lost their parents and saw their friends died in front of them, how are they going to grow properly with this kind of phobia, this kind of terror which would also remain in their heart? What would you do if you lost your parents unexpectedly? Alot of them are much more younger than us.

I will change my habit of picking food, I will change my habit of pickiness. Because people over there do not even have food, they are busy fleeing to a safer place.

The dam appeared to have suffered damages from the earthquake. I really do not which to see the dam bursting, because that will simply mean a higher death toll. Water will start coming in, flooding the whole of Sichuan. Unsaved people will not be saved then. I pray that it will not happen. Please Lord.
I do not want to include the pictures in, because I dont want to feel the heart ache.

Anyway this is my bitch.

Noticed? this is the past you. Look so different from now. LOL

Since you made me felt so touched, I shall make you feel that way too=P

This girl ah, sometimes, or I should say most of the time, damn bloody crazy one lo, fancy running off without returning the plates and cutleries everytime at w6 canteen. WTH.
I also dont know why is it that every school day must jio you go smoke or go eat one huh? I dont know leh. Why?

It seemed to have become a regular routine, so I can understand your feelings whenever I'm not around.

I dont know why I feel like changing some of your thinking, like your attitude towards your mother. I just feel so unright, maybe your thinking is still young and thats is why I want to influence you, to become a better person.

I also don't know why we can become bitch of bitches among all, maybe I have very little friends but I have alot of acquaintance.
It has always been like this since primary school to secondary school. I'm just not those kind who can have close friends whereby they will call me whenever they feel low or etc.
You can say that I'm bad at socializing. I dont mind. Its nothing to be ashamed of.

Yvonne Foo Yu Ling, you're the first one. I would hereby say that I will treasure this sistership. So, let me stay by your side ok?

Now go ahead and cry.

untitled mixture of life happiness and sadness

2008-05-18T04:25:00.011+08:00

yeah yeah i know i've been lagging behind.

Ice-skating on 6th Apr with dear n his room mate=)

I fell once and it hurts like hell after a few hours and the uncomfortableness lasted for 3 fucking days. I must say its very different from roller bladding. For ur info, i gg to blade in a few hours time =)

Aston with dear=) no photos taken with him. It was supposed to be a treat from me to celebrate his promotion. But ended up he paid LOL he forbids me to foot the bill

Food was not that great, I couldnt finish my sirloin steak, i felt too sick of it when finishing.

This was what I wore that day and I drove him crazy, cos it's this short=P

Went bowling wif him and his frens a few days later. I can bowl! I improved from 26 per game to 46! haha

dear's was 110=) well at least I showed improvement=)))

Class chalet- great catch up with them=))) lost 15bucks mahjong, wah sian1/2

Jastine's wedding dinner

I would say its the wedding dinner that I've best-dressed. And its the best wedding dinner tt I've ever been to. Sword of honour. ( Dear said we could also have something similar when er host our wedding dinner, he could ask his friends to hold sashimi knifes=.=)

my cousin's son

Yes, its LV

Then came Mother's day! it was a hectic one. Cos Elaine n I did not sleep at all. We were busy wrapping flowers for my mum from 2am all the way to 6am. Then we decided not to patronise the restaurant cos we believe that we will have to wait for a bloody long time for the dishes to be served. So we rather cook.

6am-
Went to wet market, began my nightmare. I lived in tampines for 8 years, and i've nv been to the wet market before. Ridiculous? lol.

So we bought live crabs, fish, prawns, gong gong, vegetables, sea cucumbers, roasted pork, pig liver, chicken bones and scallops, oh, as well as roses, for my aunt. Spent $200. Of which I paid $50.

8.30am reached home and started on all the washings all the way till 12pm.

Then napped till 4pm, woke up and start cleaning the house.

5pm, continue to cook till 8pm.

For my mum

For my aunt

hongbao to our dearest mummy from kellie n I

Dinner time=) soory no pictures(wat a waste) cos i was too too too too tired. Sorry.

Great news. First time in my current 1 1/2 years in RP. I feel so proud.

Basically that's all the good news.

And here comes the bad one.

Stanley n I was caught for littering of cigarette butts by NEA.

So we were give A fine summon for both of us=( which means to say we will share and pay $100 each. I would rather use the money for the Sichuan Earthquake.

Alright that's all. I would want to forget the $100, if not my heart will ache more.

Rj - Reflection Journal

2008-05-02T01:43:00.003+08:00

i feel like, i want to do something for him, to ease his burden, his stress, to share the load that he's having right now. As a girlfriend of his, have I done my part? I dunno.

He kept saying I will do my part as a girlfriend by studying seriously, taking good care of myself and listens to him. He said that by doing these, I would not add on to his burden. But his burden is already heavy enough without my burden on him.
I feel heartaches whenever I see or hear him having headaches, not feeling well. I feel the pain.

I really want to do something. But what can I do for him? Whipping up a table's full of dishes, and then let him do the cleaning up? nope. Giving him all the materialistic stuffs? oh well, he has a job but not me.

He's always by my side, supporting me when I'm down, taking care of me when I'm sick, hoaxing me when I'm angry.

I want to provide him love when he's down, take care of him when he's sick, showing him my care and concern, but how do I go about that? How can I express it out?

Do you know that you are the reason of my life? I start to feel so only until recent. I feel that the reason why I'm breathing, why I'm eating and drinking, why I take such long journey to school every schooling day, its you my dear. It's YOU i swear.

I guess that's love and I finally found love.

Jay

2008-04-28T09:08:00.004+08:00

oh ya, did i mention that i went to Jay Chou's KungFu Dunk premier? it was great!

what i mean great is that i get to see him in person, and he's so damn fucking cool.

see.

what makes me fuming was the quality for the pictures. ya i know about the bad quality and can u imagine my dad paid 700SGD for this pic of lumix shit? should have brought the hp camera along=( wasted.

but anyway, he look so damn cool in red skinny jeans. knn cannot forget him sia...

LOL damn cool

outdated post as promised

2008-04-27T00:26:00.017+08:00

Sorry for the long awaited post. Have been real busy with work and lots.
So here as promised.

i'll let photo do the talking, with captions occasionally.

First, FLOOD MY POST WITH DELICIOUS FOOD!
see my reunion dinner! wow

i cooked this

the rest my sister did, with my help of course! =)

Then after the dinner, went off to meet my darling, and off we go to marina bay for the countdown

we went to 'snatch' for a good spot and waited patiently for the clock to strike 12. and of course we were busy clicking our phone while waiting=) our phone kept ringing.

it has always been on my wishlist, that my bf would watch the fireworks with me. it was so romantic that night that i felt tears at the corners of my eyes. and of course we kissed.
so i finally fufilled it=) love you darling.

then proceed to photo-taking. i know i look retard, but too happy liao mah. wah lao new yr leh.

the only photo i managed to take with him.

oh ya before i forgot, that night when we went home, dear actually taught me how to ride the scooter! it was fun and i seriously think that i shouldnt be a driver or rider. it would put people at risks=X anyway, its a lifetime experience. he almost vomit blood on the spot and died. i'm too much a road hog.

First day of new yr, i was required to wear qipao. quite nice, flatters my figure, since i dropped 10kg.

on the way to relative's hse

This is my cousin's son! i like him alot despite the fact that he peed on me on the first day of new year.

as u can see, he likes cam whoring too, at the age of 3.

see?

This is his sister

after all the visitings, went to cine to meet dear at the suki's gathering.

i like this pic alot! we looked so blessed, so happy.

with my ex-colleagues

After all these, met up wif leong, sherlyn, hq,chee siong for gambling. we gambled till 6 in the morning under a block, LOL.

Then 2nd day:

Visted relative houses again and started to gamble again in the evening, at leong's hse. this time till 1am before we go for supper, together with elaine.

3rd day:

with mua cousin

with mua cousin's daughter

as usual, gambled again=)

well, new year is all about gambling and angbaos.

I lost like a hundred for this new year. but its ok la, since dear sponsor me=) hehe

VDAY

i received 12 stalks of roses from dear and a box of GODIVA chocs! i guess these must have costed him a bomb=X

but anyway i was very very touched. he made me find the chocs around the house by placing clues everywhere.

ISNT THAT TOUCHING? lol.

i bought him a shirt from this

and made him this=)

you see my delighted face=)

By the time he finishes work and reached home it was already 10.30pm and all the kissing etc took another 1 to 2 hours. By then it was like 1, 2 am when we reached forbidden city for our vday dinner-cum-supper.

And know what, we were there on the same day same time, the previous year as well.

so can u feel that kind of feeling we had at that particular moment when we were there? so touched

martinis

everyday is valentines day, although he really made that day so great for me=) LOVES

Then came our one yr anniversary=)

he bought a cake, HAHAHAHA

he said IT'S OUR BIRTHDAY=)

of cos, red wine is a must for such romantic moment=)

alright, that's all for now. indeed a very brief post but i have indeed fufilled my promise=)

i need to go sleep now, its 2.49am and i need to wake up early tml, go library and study with benjamin, my new classmate, see i'm really v busy n hardworking=) bye.

blow away, vanish into the air

2008-04-21T01:16:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling so stressed-out... everything seems so heavy on me. i dowanna cry myself to sleep every night. i feel unwanted, un-needed, i dun feel my importance to any single one of u out there. i feel like vanishing into the thin air. i'm tired. i wish i could get my heart to stop beating.

Every single one of u fucker told me that i should concentrate on my studies at this point of time. Do u have any idea how hard and stressful can that be? do u understand that i DO NOT want to BURY MY LIFE ESPECIALLY MY YOUTH TOTALLY IN STUDIES?

why cant every single one of u fuckers understand that I HAVE MY STRESS and i think that i have nobody to confide to, because i feel that nobody understands my situation. i dun think any of u knows my level of stress.

suddenly i felt that i hate every single one on the earth. i do not dare to love. i'm afraid of hurt emotions. i dowanna get hurt. and i started to have this kind of feeling where i nv felt before: NOTHING SEEMS TO BE AS IMPORTANT AS BEFORE. After i'm gone, the earth continue to spin, my loved ones continue to live and move on. i felt that i seems to have 'let go' every single aspects of my life.

do u know i'm weeping right now when i'm writing this?

roar

2008-04-20T03:07:00.004+08:00

i'm going to vent all my anger here!

school's really suffocating me till i cant breathe. All the micro-organisms, DNAs, molecules, atoms, human body, cells, tissues... FUCK THEM ALL.

do u know i'm having nightmares with all these every single night! ROAR!

and i'm basically having headaches almost all the time whenever i'm in school.

i'm having such as phobia to the extent whereby every single action my body made, i tot of the body cells, tissues AHHH

and i just reformatted my lappie. it was infected by virus! a fucking funny virus that made all the guys at the helpdesk laughed like shits. the source came from my classmate, passed to my beloved ipod and that means reformation for my ipod as well, which also implies the loss of 3,709 songs-,-

I changed my routine towards schol and many thinks tt i'm crazy but i'm not. i used to take 168 from the bus stop below my hse and straight to woodlands before i walk to school. but now i chose to take a bus from the same bus stop to tampines interchange, take bus 969 to yishun, then changes mrt to woodlands, then i'll walk to school. yes, u may think tt i'm crazy but it works! i've nv been late for school since then and i'm always damn early! i reached woodlands earliest by 7.45 HAHA

motive is mainly to avoid jams. jams kill me. since its the 2nd yr and fuck rp, changed the system whereby students will be downgraded by 0.5 if they are late. I cant afford to lose that 0.5 since i'm preparing myself to aim for the advance diploma=) and so far i'm getting mainly Bs and an A and not forgetting a X too=( did i mention that i'm felling sick? yeah due to the stress. its being clinically proven.

life doesnt seemed to go very well for my school life and on the technologies aspects (luckily my phone did not go worng=X)

so, just spent many days wif deardear as he took many days leave. but he's going back to work in a few hours time. but at least we did many things like having a meal at ashton's where i always wanted to visit, to celebrate his promotion=) we watched movies+naruto, having supper together, not forgetting sitting by his side when he gambles=)

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY WE ARE GOING FOR THE SINGAPORE FLYER SOON!!! hehe tt's the main thing i'm looking forward about=)))

miss him lots now even though we just parted each other physically for an hour or so. we r nv parted emotionally.

i just realised tht dear's bday is nearing and i still have not figured what to buy for him and I must start saving money, since i've got so many to buy! clothes, cosmetics, shoes, bags, dear's bday prezzie, my bday chalet, and the list goes on and on and on... OMFG

the next post will be updates that putdated long ago+ lots lots lots of pictures, I promise=)
-new yr
-vday
-holiday
many more=)

I promise

2008-04-01T02:30:00.003+08:00

I promise, i'll blog about the new year+vday all at one go k?

well at least give me some time to finish those work on hands before i blog about those events which have past ultra long ago... i promise it will be a long post=)

does that do? haha now stop pestering me.

just some rantings here and there=P

2008-03-31T02:34:00.005+08:00

I've just gotten myself a BEAUTY, LG KU990 VIEWTY=) after realising the fact that my beloved SAMSUNG 13.5ULTRA EDITION Z720 indeed have problems after using it for some 10months. (THANKS DEAR for the new phone, lovelove)

the fact that i'm going to stay over at his house for 2 nights this coming weekend makes my heart pumps slightly a lil faster than usual but at the same time, i'm also reminded that school's going to start soon and esp when its going to start at 8.30AM. now that's something that i dont really look forward to =(

And also the fact that he MIGHT be bringing me back to his hometown in M'sia for a week, makes me feel so... so... so... FORWARD-LOOKING=)))

(yea, only if he does, he's rumbling about me being below 18, being very worried should anything happen to me when we're at M'sia, wait till i'm 18 etc etc etc)

he seems unwilling doesnt he? well, we shall see. and he better do bring me along, if not i'll be real angry with him.

actually its the fact that i couldnt bear not to see him for a week, i'll be having serious lovesick! and it had alwas been my wish for him to bring me back to see his family=))) AND AND AND i want to make sure he doesnt fool around even though i know that he WONT=) HAHA

alright that's all for now, i've met him in 2 consecutive days and it seems like i've lack of sleep and my digestive system aint doing very well =( and i'm waiting for him to get his pay before i can shop again, i want to get new clothes for the new term! haha

rantings+complains

2008-03-13T08:16:00.004+08:00

GOSH GOSH GOSH, i think i have successfully revert my sleeping time back, and i cant believe that i'm awake almost every morning at this time, 8AM! its been sooooooooooo loooong since i last woke up automatically at this time. It's good i guess=)

but i've been tortured! by first- Elaine. being dragged to her workplace, force sat at the desk to do work, researching stuffs bout our company ARGH! wah piang eh, the toilet so far, want shit also difficult, dou have water cooler some more! want refill water bottle also difficult! SOMEMORE NEED TO WALK SO FAR FOR FOOD! KNN!

anyway, it is proven effective cause i really get work done=) and we're one more step closer right now.

second- my pig(BF). forced to do translations for his documents. actually not forced la, but i also have no choice, can say no meh? then those bloody documents made me sat there for like some fucking 5-7 hours like that and i handwrote them. he's supposed to get my handwrote version and copy another set of it, then that bloody asshole suggested i should type it out and print it out, all manually. ARGH!!!!!! see? since you want me to type it out, ask me to bring my laptop along in the first place la, see, now extra efforts needs to be put in. Waste of my time and effort only. Ok, i better not let him see this. if not.... zzz

just quarrelled with him 2 days ago, over some trival things, but then heng ah, nothing bad happened, instead, he said things he never said before, which made me feel, feel very warmth, secure, happy etc etc. the moment i heard those words coming out of his mouth, i was like, stoned? i never least expected that those words, would come from him.

anyway, i slept at 5am and now i woke up at 8am, i'm going back to sleep again=)

ROARRRRRRRRR

2008-03-05T07:30:00.003+08:00

its 7.30 in the morning and i just simply couldnt fall asleep. maybe i'm too excited to see him in another 24 hours time -,- i miss him dearly, havent seen him for like some 5 days.

i've downloaded 40 epsiodes of NARUTO at one go, for the pig-that-i-missed-so-much. lucky bastard.

AWWW i hate it when my appetite goes hay-wired. i've been having this a-meal-a-day thing for a whole damn week and i manage to maintain my 50.5 kg. now here i am to binge. OH MY FUCKING GOD

ok, hay-wired sleeping times, hay-wired appetite, what's next?

Time;timeless

2008-03-03T01:57:00.004+08:00

I just realise i got no time for myself. I'm flooding myself with lotsa SHITs. I'm going to give Kellie tuition for 5 subjects, 5SUBJECTS. Chemistry, Biology( i did not take in sec sch, but i'm gonna give it a try), History, Social Studies and lastly English. Omy, am i clever=)

From the tuition, i need to prepare her notes, mindmaps questions and I AM going to read up all the textbooks AGAIN becos its been more than a year since i last touched them.

Then, I have to come up with designs for my online-business's website, T-shirts OMG.

I'm really very busy.

its 2.10am now and i'm still preparing kellie's history notes=(

Can i have 48 hours?

GOD DAMNIT-- an angry man is a hungry man

2008-02-29T02:18:00.004+08:00

I'M FIRED! AHHHHHHH ROARRRRRR

i didnt turn up for work on tue and thus i got fired=( it was my fault i admit='(

pls pardon me for all the complaining and maybe whinning and i also do know that i havent blog for a long time, but believe me, I REALLY DO NOT HAVE THE MOOD TO BLOG ABOUT THE PAST, RIGHT NOW AT THIS MOMENT, full stop.

After all these shit that happened, I only feel like concentrating on Elaine's and my online business stuffs, get ready the blog and accounts and start earning big money. But it is of great hardwork. YOU KNOW IT, starting a online business, or another kind of business is not as easy as shitting.

I am not sad over the fired-matter but the main problem is, being an idealist, i always thought that i have abilities, you know, working abilities? BUT I WAS PROVEN WRONG! u know, how sad can it be? it's like, u always thought that you are good in working or etc(i'm not saying that i'm good but i'm just giving an example), but after a long time thinking that you are good, you are capable, and u suddenly got fired=(

Alright, fine, i admit, i'm just being too overly confident of myself, which is a very bad thing. it landed me in this state.
it's like a waking up from a dream. Because whatever you thought are actually not what they are. In other words, its assuming. AND, assumption is the mother of failure.

So, it actually made me realised that there's something very wrong with my attitude, because this is not the first time already. Most said that because i do not have a family to support and i'm not working for a living, thus i tend not to take work seriously. Which i agree=(

Thus now, i will first have to get my attitude for my studies corrected first, because school is more important than work at this particular period! i mean, it's MY future, i cannot afford to put it at stake esp the fact that i din do well for my overall year 1, so so so, i will have to work extra harder for my future years. Besides, i'm already not working part-times, means i can concentrate more without being so tired after work and at the same time it also means less money for me.

I do not know why I felt like my income's being totaly cut off from me, when i still get my pocket-money and dear would also provide for me=( i just dunno why, or maybe i'm worried that dear and i will break-up and in the end, i can only survive on my pathetic pocket money which at the same time also have to support my smoking expenses? BUT BUT BUT i have already decided to cut down on my spendings and try not to get him transfer me money all the time, COS I DOWAN HIM TO DIE OF HUNGER and also i do not want to add on to his burden at this particular point of time. I knew he's alreadyfacing lots of stress from his work, so i'll just be silently supporting him from the behind. Besides, i've got my online-business with Elaine (although money wont just come rolling in without hard work) to depend on and I also havent got much things to buy. I wont die without a Gucci or LV bag, life still goes on. I have money to eat and drink and at most, smoke lesser!

Elaine told me to look this matter from another aspect, which this might happen to make me move on, and maybe i'll succeed in the online business! I know she's trying to persuade me to help her with it but she does make a point. I HAVE pocket-money, i'm not lacking of money, i do not have a family to feed. Since its a zero-capital business why not? if it fails i'll only be wasting my time, of which, i've lots of time right now! So i really think that she put in a valid point which i decided to help her and be lady bosses tgt!

indeed, an angry man is a hungry man, i know its 'a hungry man is an angry man' but i think the first one works better for me. I only had a meal yesterday and i did not consume any form of food in the next 30 hours. my weight dropped from 52 to 50.5kg=) Sadly, i started binging. A heavy-loaded dinner till i could eventually see my stomach coming out of nothing, cookies, cheesecakes and i dunno what it would be later when i finish this post. in fact when i just woke up (btw, i slept for the whole of today), i already felt like binging by going to steamboat buffet but i realised that i would most probably be very very full after the first plate of food and then waste my money. Thus, an angry man is a hungry man =(

I guess of this holiday, i'll just have to rot at home, and i'm afraid that i'll put on weight again like before because i'll have nothing to do but to eat and sleep.

SO, people, ask me out! but i have to indicate, i'm saving money, or in other words, i'm trying to use less or NO money.

sleepless

2008-02-03T06:18:00.001+08:00

it's 6.22am and i'm not sleeping yet!!!

programmes lining ahead:

-visiting temple at 9, then for some delicious hongkong dim sums=X
-meeting kelly for lunch at novena n.h
-shopping
-jay's latest movie premier at suntec! and might get to see him in person=)
-go home sleepzzz

and since i'm going out at 9 and its already this time in the morning, i might as well dun sleep!

Goodbye

2008-02-03T00:48:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna kiss YEAR ONE GOODBYE.

i missed 4days of school during the last week. I'm practically having the holiday moods right now! HAHS

from now on, i'm going miss the handicap sessions. but nvm, we still can meet up at the carpark in the future, alright Ashley and Q?

UPDATE: new year spending has gone up to S$700 EXCLUDING facial treatments and medicure sessions=(

lazy lazy bum bum

2008-01-28T12:29:00.000+08:00

I've got tons to blog about!

First first first, WEI LEONG n SHERLYN's CHALET!!! we had lotsa fun!!! many were there during the cake cut session except dear=( cos elaine was there... so too bad.

birthday boy and birthday girl

Act cute cum phototaking session

after many left, leaving only those who's staying for the night, we proceeded to the make-up session and guess who's the victims?

of cos the birthday boy and his best fren la!

and who's the stylists? of cos its me la! as well as tessa and sherlyn=)

take a look at my artpiece

Next victim: IRWIN TAN SHI QUAN

went to wildwildwet with the guys on the second day; kinda fun and i finally wore that brought-long-long-time-ago-but-never-wore-before bikini. and i cam-whored alot with it-heh! and of cos i cam-whored with the cam-whore-king aka birthdayboy too

that very night, the birthday boy and birthday girl got drunk, because of a stupid match-.-
imagine one's 18 and another's 21... they drunk like there's no tml. i drunk too but i wasnt drunk=) imagine we had like 5 bottles of liquor=) and the actions that they did was like-,- deh, i can still laugh my ass off at this moment for the actions they did that night, i guess i cant simply forget them for the rest of my life. and u know, it took me pains to put sherlyn to sleep. zzz

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I cleaned my room for the new year! With the help of wei leong of cos! =) I’m so proud of myself!!!

i guess i'm hooked to cupcakes!!! gimme gimme more gimme more~

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And when our big brother wei leong finally turns 18, sherlyn, weilong and i decided to go club and its only then, i realised i lost my sis ezlink card, which means to say, i couldnt enter clubs like MOS, which is checking so so so strictly. so that night all of us dolled up including wl. we took a cab down to Zouk, hoping that they wont check on me. And that was all false hope. I was rejected and i felt embrassed all the way, and decided to try our luck at MOS. On our way there, Sherlyn realised she dropped her phone and we had to go all the way to Hougang just to retrieve the phone and head back to MOS. As i predicted, i was rejected by MOS too=( den we walked around, and we actually wanted to enter THE CLINIC cos the wheelchairs are cool! dun u think sitting on wheelchairs and drinking from dripping bags are cool? I FEEL SO! but wl wanted to enter a club instead of a bar. So sad.

so we tried Lunar, well, almost there, we almost made it inside but still=( Then we headed to boat quay's HOME CLUB. along the way, we passed eskimo's bar, Sherlyn and I really wanted to get in and it's reeeeal cooooooool and coooold~~~ grrrr grrrr
and once again wl didnt want. So we went to home club and we made it! They both are checked except me=)

entered home club but it wasnt very fun as i was missing MOS's smoove=((( sobs.

we had asahi and when sherlyn and i saw that wl's tipsy, we tried to stop him, by drinking his beer up. I must have drunk too fast, that i became a merlion. I vomited at Singapore River, quite cool huh!
i mean, not everybody can vomit at the Singapore River HAH. then they sent me home, and of cos I vomited on my way back too, in a plastic bag=) then, after i took the lift up to my house, i vomited again. YUCKS

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THEN THEN THEN came my dad's bday. so 2 days before, i went to the bank to open a new account at UOB and i waited like some shit for like some 1hr. then i continued to wait at DBS to change some new notes for my dad's angbao. So i gave him an angbao with $88 in it, cos i really got no idea wat to buy for him. I mean, what would u buy for ur own dad when he lacks nothing? yeah, so i tot that an angbao is the best choice=) so we had dinner at yong chun yuan, which is at chinatown and their's speciality dish is their PEKIN DUCK!!! omg i'm hungry the moment i think of it=( nvm, i'm going back there soon for dinner=) HAHA well, that was the day before my dad's actually birthday. After dinner met up with dear to shop at bugis. He spent like some 300 bucks at levis just for 2 jeans and a boxer and i didnt get to buy anything of my own cos he took such a long time=(

On the actual day of daddy's bday, we went to cystal jade at TM for dinner, and of cos, the food wasnt as nice when compared to yong chun yuan. And of cos, how can a birthday dinner be lacking of a birthday cake? so elaine and i went to angie the choice the get one for my dad. Superb! not very expensive too, around $40 plus and i paid=)

Happy Daddy and Happy Mummy

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Dear just got 5 days off in total, so almost all the time was spent with him. First day, BUGIS, spent 100 busks on my cosmetics and 100 bucks on his DKNY cologne and some of my scrapbooking stuffs. We did quarrel over dinner but afterall, he hoaxed me happy=) had dinner at siam kitchen and the food was terrible!!! i dowanna mention about it bought him a Picard wallet which he and i likes it very much.=)

Then Far east, I spent like some $250 at far east for my new year clothes, shopped the whole day and dear was like so patiently waiting for me to try all 8 dresses at one go but i do know, he's feeling so bored and i can read his mind, he must be thinking, 'oh my, when is this bitch going to finish shopping?? i cant wait to end this shitty shopping right now!' haha nah joking.

my pig

movie time

after shopping at far east, we went back home to put down my victories and went to chinatown to get my qi pao. We did not know that there was going to be lights-on ceremony at chinatown until we board the cab! so, chinatown was packed with people like sardines. We managed to catch a glimpsed of the beautiful-and-romantic fireworks and after trying qi paos from different shops, finally got the one i loved, that flatters the figure, heh

after that was a little unhappiness cos of some words he choose to use.

I fell sick very suddenly, fever for 2 consecutive days and yet he did not cook any porridge for me!!! Humph!!! But at least he still showed care and concern for me=) lovesloves

basically the five days were blissful, i miss him lots! he went on leave just because of a sentence i said, 'my dear always have no time for me, its always work work and work'. I'm such a bad girlfren, HAH

And he had a suprise for me before i went over to find him during his leave. He dyed his hair red and know he looks like a chao ah beng and i looked so much pleasant.

And in order to match him, i just dyed and highlighted my hair today, the colour is like the colour of dry grass LOL nah, its not that bad. and kellie just rebonded her hair and that's really shit. its so flat and black. hah, shhhhh... i hope she doesnt read this.

So now i've spent a total of S$600 on my new year stuffs EXCLUDING medicure and facial=(
of which dear sponsered $150 and daddy $250

by the way, my sis already knew that i smoke and now i can just smoke in front of her or with her! isnt that cool HAHAS

bought my sis a bag for her bday present, going to buy a cake for her as well.

and my scrapbooking is going great! the money spent, great too!!! hehehe i'm going really very broke
ok i'm tired, i think that's about it.

lazy lazy bum bum

2008-01-16T12:24:00.000+08:00

I've got lotsa to blog about BUT i guess i'm just TOO LAZY to get my butt off, uploading tons of funny photos from Wei Leong n Sherlyn's chalet, home-club night, daddy's bday dinners, more cupcakes photos! AND AND AND of course the full story of the clubbing night(it was hectic)

can i just mark all the photos and upload them all at one go??? haha

alright, wait till i have the time and energy to do so then!

i really need lotsa sleep!

festives for the loved ones

2008-01-02T02:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

new year resolutions for year 2008:

-no more frequent skipping of classes+good grades

-good health

-NEW GUCCI/LV BAG

-PSP(maybe?)

-open new bank account to save up $$$

-citibank visa card

-relationships(dear, family, friends)

-MONEY!
-18th bday chalet

-excel in work

and the list goes on....

(not in terms of ranking)

ok i know i've got a long list

spent christmas eve at my workplace with a feast!!! turkey, ham, nuggets, potatoes, and lots more!!! we had exchange gifts too=) i got a box of chocolates which i do not really like that brand. so i changed it with yong qiang and got myself a ferrero rocher, hehe=)

then i rushed off to spend the rest of the night with my dear

i worked on christmas day and after work, off i go to his hse! for 2 nights WAHAHA

then then then on 27th, went ktv at cineleisure with yong qiang, wei leong, irwin, wee khimi and jian wei the emo boy. that day was really fun! we had lots of jokes in the ktv room, and i swear tt's the craziest ktv session i ever had and of course, i was the starter of all=)

the rest of cam-whore photos are with yong qiang=) so tt's not all

after the ktv session, we went to shyrene's hse, that was crazy man! i think all of us were tipsy. we had dinner there n i eat the most. i was famished. no photos for the feast cos i was busy gobbling especially the curry and the blue cheese. then came the drinking session. I DRANK THE MOST n I VOMITTED THE MOST!!! wei leong was tipsy that he started to do funny things. so does the rest of them... luckily i do not have to work the next day. i really pity the rest of them who have to work=(

i did 2 bloody crazy action that night that could have taken my life. on the way home in the cab, i said i wanted to vomit, so they lowered down the car window, and i just vomited outside the car, with my head out, while the vehicle was still moving at a fast speed. if another vehcile come by, i think my head would just be gone from me=P

then, everybody reached home at 2am, only i reached at 3.30am. i sat at my block's stairway and continued to vomit, sat there for like some 1 1/2 hour and i think, any fool or idiot who walk pass could tell that this girl at the stairway is very drunk BUT luckily nobody did=) i know, cos i'm still conscious.

then the next day, i woke up at 8am to bathe and went back to sleep. after that was 4e4 bbq at the bugis area. quite a fun night to meet up with some old peeps

and i've gotten myself quite drenched too because of the jazcuzzi pool

then it came new year eve! went to buy sherlyn's bday present, then had dinner with parents n kellie at ajisen, off i go to fetch me dear from work!=) took a cab down to novena, bought 12 beautiful cupcakes from angelz cup, for the both of us=)))

cupcakes are now my latest favourites=) hehe aint the cup cakes beautiful???

then i waited for him at his workplace and after that off we go to newton for our seafood feast!!!!

had sambal kangkong, bbq stingray, la la, chilli crab and fried buns!!! like i said before, it doesnt matter where we have our meals, its the person that we are having it with.

he took a picture of me crabbing the crab out.

after that i remembered saying happy new yr to him at the toa payoh's mrt station=) went to his house for a short rest before i went home=)

went to wei leong's hse just now to help prepare the bbq food for the chalet. phew, i smell of chicken wings and dory fishes=(

alright i've got to go... dear wants me to sleep right now cos i'll be away for 2 nights, its wei leong and sherlyn's big day coming up.

the season of love

2007-12-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

WOOT! I'VE GOT TONS TO BLOG!!!

ok where did i stop the last time? ya about the disgusting thing that my captain brought back to singapore:

THIS IS IT!!! FRIED BAMBOO WORMS!!!

They are delicious mind you!

ok so i went out with jeff the other day and i brought him to nihon mura revenue hse. oh ya! btw i had a cut, in fact 2. I was slicing the lemons and SHHHH blood oozing out from my first and middle finger and they are quite deeply cutted.

sob sob it was fine initially until after a minute or so, it started to pain like shyt. anyway dear was so panick that he even wanted to come over and find me! hahas its just a small cut(s) but it shows that he's very concern over me. he kept calling my phone.

ya continue, so i brought jeff to nihon mura, and we had a drink and some soft shell crabs. then dear suddenly popped up my fav mango sensation onto my table and he said: 'enjoy ur desserts'

WOW complimentary desserts served personally by the chef himself! tell me, who would get this kind of excellent service? of course its only applicable to me=) LOVESLOVES

then after the lunch-cum-dinner, we went over to far east to shop. I shopped a total of 2 tops for myself (appro. $20), 2 tops for dear (appro.$66), 2 belts, 1 necklace (appro. $10). wow

alot of cam-whore that day

lotslotslots

then i met up with my piggie and passed him the shirts and i swear that its the nicest shirts that he ever owned

SEE?

NICE RIGHT???

dearie and I went to shop at orchard and I've got my christmas present from him! a ipod classic leather case, to protect my precious ipod. we got it from ck tangs hehe

hehe nicenice can flip open one somemore i like i like=) muacks

then we went over to kallang nihon mura to have dinner and used the $50 voucher. and i cant believe that i ate some $58 worth of food. i guess i really need more gyming. and i guess that i'm hooked to gyms. HAHA

there was a little unhappiness that night but we got it all solved. btw that was our 10th month anniversary night=) no matter wat i still love you my baby.

i'm hooked to fake eyelashes, really. i love'em

we went to orchard the other day to take photos too=) nicenice

you know, he detest taking photos alot alot. but i still manage to get him to take it with me HEHE

hug hug=)

i'm so blessed, to have him=) and i gave him the christmas present that i got for him, he loved it. cos we can both use it HAHAS massage oil+warmer+massager( which is me=])

we wanted to catch the movie national treasure but the timings and the seats werent right, so i guess i'll have to wait till next week. and i'm going to stay over at his house next week!!! YEAH!!!

soon enough i'm going to get myself busy with the hands-on of the valentines/1yr anni. prezzie for him=) real busy.

i've stolen my dad's red wine and i'm going to enjoy it!

that's all for now!

hehs

je-taime

2007-12-16T02:19:00.000+08:00

i missed school on fri and it officially marks the start of the school holidays!

well, ive been pretty sick recently, fevers, coughs, flus oh my... and not forgetting popping lots of different types of pills plus up till 9 panadol tablets within a day='(

BUT im much better today althou there's still a lil flu and coughs here n there
and i can sense that my boss like quite unhappy with me cos i'm always sick and not being able to work but well, who wants to be sick and suffer all the pills and torturing times and missing out all the good food [but im pretty blessed to have porridge that dear cooked, yummyyumylovesloves] ??? anytway its really not good to be sick, no icy cold drinks for me too=(

sad=(=(

jeff was staying at my house the other night and i accompanied him till 5am, oh my, im such a good long time fren. i think i know him from like 6yrs old? missed those chalet days when we'll have family chalets for every school holiday. and he overwhelms me with his french words.
damnit when he say those words, he sound really like a french but when i said the same words, i sound like some thailand or indian

and and and my captain at my workplace just came back from thailand not too long ago and he brought something very disgusting back

hmmm. photos the next time, i shall keep you in suspense in the mean time wakaka

you know, ive lost my specs again! its like, ive only bought it for like a month or two? omg, i'm going to spend another 100 bucks on it ARGH

i really feel that my body is very tired, its like im going to reach the limit of the overall body energy expenditure. i feel like i'll just faint one fine day and might just never wake up.
ive not been getting enough sleep and all. and this suggest that i should go sleep now
heh

pig, je-taime. (v)

2007-12-07T14:21:00.000+08:00

i'm trying very hard to lose weight

DUN TEMPT ME!!!

it must be love

2007-12-05T01:06:00.000+08:00

i've nv been so much happier before
it must be ur presence in my life
you brought to me so much happiness

and of course the times when i cried so hard and heart-broken moments were not forgotten
and nights without u by my side r terrible
but i guess these must be the times for our relationship to grow much stronger than before

all the times we spent together, the words that's only shared between u and me,
things that only both of us understands and the funny faces u made just to tease me,
the washings you did after i cooked even if its your bday,
the clothes you helped me wash after i came back from chalet outings,
the surprises that you tried to plan for me but failed,
sacrificing your sleep just to meet me,
cooking for me when i'm terribly sick even though u really dun like to cook apart from ur work,
giving me the surprise hugs from behind and never fail to scare me with,
and many others more that touches me, that melts me

and you know i always melt at your hugs and kisses

although sometimes u left me heart-broken, angry!!!, speechless

but but but

i know the efforts that you putted in this relationship
i knowed you changed your pace
and tried very hard to understand me despite the differences
i know you worked very hard to give me a better and promising future
the promises you made
i appreciate that alot dear

and

i just realised that having a meal, what matter most is not the food or the venue of the meal but its the person that u r having it with.

i must thank god for presenting you to me
such a great boyfriend
and the process of us from the start till this very moment is so much wonderful

i know i've been truly blessed to have you
all the words that u've said be it harsh words or unintended words
all remains in my mind
for every moment

my mind has been filled with thoughts of you, our future and times with you
its all about you my dear

u are the first person who made me feel like spending a whole life time with.
i really mean a whole life time

the first one that i'll really give in
it's really give in

i guess i finally found love

life's like that

2007-12-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

AWWW ARGHH AWWW ARGHH

the worries ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

1st worry: studies
module selection

OMG! which specialisation shall i choose?!?!?!
wat do i want to be in the future?
will i still have the passion in the future?

2nd worry: christmassssssssssss

i don know wat i wan and dear's been asking me very very frequently,
"dear, wat do u wan for chiristmas? i totally don know wat u wan..." -.-

THEN THEN THEN

wat m i going to get for dear?

wallet?[he just bought one not so long ago but i feel like getting a matching one with mine. but mine is gucci AND AND AND i just saw a gucci bag that's going to cost me around 1K]
clothes?[i ald got him one a few days ago, so its like nth special.]
red wine?[he suddenly not into red wine anymore]
bag?[nah i don think so cos he's not like me=)]
watch?[he ald got one]
jigsaw puzzle?[oh my.... pls. he's ald 25 and i dun think tt's a nice one]
mahjong set?[hahas i believe its more for his roommate and room neighbour]
set of sashimi knife?[hahaha it just make me want to laugh but still, not too bad. try harder]
wine tool kit?[maybe HAHAS sounds not too bad afterall but i still want to find something for him which he can use and see it everyday, so he will be constantly reminded of me =P]
personal products?[HAHAHAHAHAHAHA good one]

ARGH its giving me headaches AGAIN!

WAT TO BUY??

i want to get him something that's useful, constantly let him be reminded of his darling, something that he likes[but he usually have no preferences], and meaningful.

how?

argh. after christmas comes valentine's day then his bday then christmas again. it just goes on and on and on.

again[s]

2007-11-30T12:06:00.000+08:00

WAH I SPENT $16.20 on cab fare to sch [again] [fuck]

siansations. i wanted to skip sch[again], but i realised i couldnt cos i skipped 2 days of this week n i'll receive the fucking letter[again] if i skip[again]

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i have an eye for a gucci bag[again]

and this time is for real

dynamics of life

2007-11-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

weewee i finally uploaded those damn photos to my lappie

but sad to say nothing particularly interesting happened=(

oh ya you know, i skipped school like there's no tmr WAHAHA

i missed school so much that i got confused with the weeks and dates

its all about work, school, meetups with my baby, sleep

ARGH BORED!!!

i'm just too bored in school, u cant blame me

my new shawl

call me the rich tai tai

some very outdated neoprints of my baby n me

oh how much i missed my long long hair

where i can style it anyhow i want it

i love you baby

the new life(s) of my house

5 idiotic hamsters of the 2 cheapo hamster

so they are the desendants of the cheaposters

'THE CHEAPO FAMILY'

friends who remembered my previous msn nick

hahas

heartily happy =)

2007-11-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

woot woot
ice berg melted
he hasnt been calling or messgaing me for like some 2 days

n there i melt in his hugs and kisses

i jus have this type of 'melty' feelings whenever he hugs me or kisses me

i like tat

a great day wif him
although i skipped sch AGAIN
sci again =(

i really cant skip anymore
i've already received letter from sch =(((

macbook macbook macbook
i want!!!

i cant upload any photos from my phone to my lappie!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, happy belated 9th month anniversary =) heehee

i'm having the 'dun feel like blogging' mood

2007-11-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

it's been sometime since i lasted blog

ever since sch starts i've been missing school for 3 days WTF
GPA=gonecase

so i die die must go sch tml!!!

adidas fair!!
damage: $180

victory:
A PAIR OF SHOES (for dear)
3 JACKETS
A PANT
A BAG
A BOTTLE
3 CAPS

=P =D =)

wow

i love my dear!
ok that's very random

i really dun feel like going school tml
but if i dun go,
i'll receive letter from the sch!!! CB
then i still got work after school!!!

SIANSATIONS

i'm thinking of a new laptop, a new handphone, PSP!!!

GOD, can you pls drop a bag of money straight down from heaven to my feet?

bday treats

2007-10-27T02:29:00.000+08:00

I know i took a long time to blog this post
my bday's on 23rd oct n its already 27th LOL
30 plus photos hahas

about 6 celebrations in total.
=)

15.10.07
early celebration with my family
had dinner at blk 138-- near my house

i know its too early

but too bad,

i ald have programs all lined up =/

and its kinda bad luck to celebrate bday after it has passes

i dunno

i heard from the older generation.

ALRIGHT FINE, CALL ME SUPERTITIOUS WATEVER

17.10.07
daddy bought me IPOD CLASSIC 80GB!!!
428bucks
hehe bloody high

the FIRST PRESENT i received

I LOVE IT!!! it's damn nice

and tt's wat i call good music

18.10.07
celebrated with wei leong, sherlyn, tessa, irwin and jj at NH Tamp

a great dinner!

lotsa salmon sashimi!!!

They surprised me!

i din know tt there was a cake

when all the other customers left, they switched off the restuarant lights

my first thought was,

'EH NIHON MURA LIGHTS OUT?? SHORT-CIRCUITED?'

then fei lee walked over,

n ask us to foot the bill

den suddenly,

irwin walked over with the cake

WAH I WAS SO TOUCHED LO

i almost cried =D

The cake looked abit distorted after I cutted it =/

after dinner was drinking session

wei leong got drunk after half a bottle of long island, half a bottle of barcadi, 2 cans of caslburg

he got so drunk that he talked cock =/ so many jokes LOL

and he was so drunk that he start to put his head on my thigh =/
then he vomited like some 12345 times =/
and the things he vomited out was like so.... yucks.

thanks sherlyn for the chocolates!

I did not go to school the next day =/

hahas

20.10.07

went back home for a nap after work

then prepare for clubbing at MOS

met pat at city hall mrt control station n he was late

WE BOTH WAITED AN HOUR FOR STANLEY N HIS FREN

then i saw my ex, lemon

LOL

my beloved gf gave me a mini mouse deco, and 2 tops--- LOVE U BABE

There was a great surprise that night

Dear told me earlier on that he's tired so he wont be joining me that night

so i was chatting with my friends in MOS

suddenly someone hugged my waist

i turned around

n asked who is he

he stared at me
n i stared at him

den i asked him if he's Lina's friend

den he said

'AH SINCE U DUN RECOGNISE ME, DEN I GO LIAO'

i took another stare

AND REALISED HE'S MY BOYFRIEND!

OMG

i was damn shocked and surprised!

i was damn happy u know.....

damn bloody fucking happy
so went to his hse around 2 plus for a nap

LOL

22.10.07

Part I

celebrated once in sch wif cheryl, ryzzal, pat,stanley, dao qing and lina

in fact it was sort of like a gathering or a lunch LOL

they gave me a cup filled with chocolates

THANKS ALOT =)

Part II

then met my 6 gals at tm, chero was late

met for fish n co

A NICE DINNER

i hope the next gathering wont be long

Part III

i met dear at city hall mrt control station

walk to the esplanade

sat at the threatre on the bay to enjoy the breeze

it has always been one of my wishes

to spend time with my love one there

and enjoy the night scenery

i was so touched that night

then we walked to clarke quay
and bought some beer

n enjoyed chocolates bought by sherlyn

it was nice =)

our 'kids' piglets=)

night sceneries

LOVES

just when we were enjoying the breeze, the beer, the scenery,

it suddenly rained

so we called a cab

and went back tpy

to eat the cake

dear bought me a chocz cake
it was a special one

as it is different from other cakes that u will see outside

hahas delicious!

he gave me a box of chocolates

and bluffed me that it was my bday present from him

i can say its de most expensive chocolates i ever ate in my 17 yrs of life

23.10.07

i decided to skip school n ut

took a cab to tpy

continue sleeping HAHAS

dear presented to me the actual birthday present

and i almost cried

den we went over to POSB to have my mastercard =)

woohoo~~

then we had MOSburger for lunch

den we went to dhoby ghaut, plaza singapura

wanted to catch a movie

but nth seems to interest me much

hahas

then we walked to cathy

and shopped....

dear saw a pair of adidas shoes

but we FORGOT TO BUY WTF

but we bought a couple ring

nice lo hahas

100 bucks a pair

we saw 2 pairs and couldnt really decide which one

SO HE WANTED TO BUY BOTH

i stopped him in time n reminded him that we could only wear a pair at a time

so i choose this design =D

den we walked all the way to bugis

hahas

shopped and dear bought 4 tops- $200 lol

he looks good in those tops

cos i chose them

WAKAKA

den we went for a drink

after that we went for dinner at Indulgez

SUPER NICE!

we had lobster bisque-- i'm craving for this while blogging now LOL

mango frappe

char-grilled ribeye steak

actually wanted to take photo but my phone ran out of batt =/

so i took it from the website instead HAHAS

but it was nice =) really very nice

didnt have any dessert or side dishes

cos we were full LOL

see my satisfied face

its my first time signing my mastercard =P

bloody shiok!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST:

I WAN TO THANKS ALL FOR THE WISHES! MUACKS

WITH LOVE,

CYNDEE

i'm tall =)

2007-10-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

i've got my hair redyed
quite nice hahas

THANKS WEI LEONG!!!!!

ate out wif my family
to celebrate my bday earlier
I KNOW ITS TOO EARLY
[sorry i'm quite booked throughout the week]

dear's sick
worried bout him
i doubt i can sleep tonight
actually wanted to bring him
to see doc

but he didnt want to=(

sob

the pair of wedge is better today
no blisters
but it still hurts =(

everyone's complaining bout that pair of shoes
that i wore

hair hair

2007-10-13T01:14:00.001+08:00

ok i know my face looks rounder
after the hair cut

i'm missing my long hair
all long
the ones i kept for
3 fucking years

fuck school, fuck everything

2007-10-10T18:39:00.000+08:00

i'm currently at downtowneast
using their net

the moment i entered the chalet
i was shocked
2 of them wearing boxers
walking here n there

they did wear something inside la LOL

today's not a good day
sch got me crazy
n mr ang got me sad, disappointed
n felt abit lost too

Happy day out-- 9th oct (tuesday)
skipped sch
and i happily went to tpy
hahas

we watched resident evil
not bad
i was too terrified to see the undead =(

2 lan jiao bin
guess who's de guy

the white trashes the red

the red got trashed by white

the red n white trashes me

wtf

exhaustion got over me

2007-10-08T13:52:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so fucked up in class
i'm so bloody tired tt i slept half the 2nd breakout
fuck

my leg hurts so much
that i could feel the pain
whenever i walk

once again i do not understand
maths problem statement again
4 weeks liao
FUCK there goes my grades

dear called me at 2.30am

and i slept at 3am
waking up 7.30am

i will go home straight immediately after sch ends

to sleep

back to the basics

2007-10-07T01:25:00.000+08:00

i'm back at nihon mura tampines
fuckingly tired
here i am working my ass off--again
however
its still not as busy as last december

december 2006
my pay reached 1000plus
fucking shiok n dun ask me where de money went to

cos i dunno =(

today's really very busy
n my leg and foot hurts like nobody's business

dun ask me about my hair
i do regret a little now
and kinda miss my 3-year hair

birthday coming up n now i really dunno wat i wan for my birthday
so, stop asking me wat i wan for my birthday prezzie ok?

i really got no idea =)

crazy gotten over me

2007-10-04T13:03:00.000+08:00

crazy got over me

n i snip off the hair which i kept for like 3 years

COOL

i was skimming through my iTunes

n listened to a number of songs

and got reminded of my few memorable ex boyfriends

This I promise you-- Nsync

reminded me of Lemon

this song used to be his caller ID on my phone

the song which i hate to hear

when ever this song starts

i would think of what to say when i pick up

i would think of a place that i could bluff him that i'm at

Ming Yun-- Full house

reminded me of Sam

3rd party of my relationship with Lemon

ya i admit that i two-timed him

All i remembered in this relationship wif Sam

WAITING

i waited hours and hours for him

i waited long enough for him to say I LOVE YOU to me

i waited so long for him to give me a name in the relationship

its all about waiting

and i gave up cos i see no end to it

i still remember that in the past

travelling in the bus going over to yishun to find him

or coming back to tampines after seeing him

i would just play the front part of the song, repeating

just that first few seconds of that song

cos he seldom call

heartbreaking

Say That You Love Me-- er zuo ju zhi wen

this is the song of my present bf-- caller ID

ya i wan him to say he love me

alright i'm having terrible cramps right now

n its really very horrible

eventful day

2007-09-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

what an eventful day today
like i said,
life isnt going to be this good; always

after sch went dhoby ghaut with wei xiang, my new classmate

the beancurd was nice! after all its good to have something cold on a damn hot day
especially after a 15 mins walk

then we proceed to bugis to have my favourite
beef noodles

WAHAHA

when lasalle suddenly appeared before us
lol
de building is damn nice
but the campus is damn small

lolz

did not went sch on wed
skipped
7th month anniversary
i want to spend it with him
cos i'm afraid that there'll be no next time

it left me wild awake

2007-09-18T09:22:00.000+08:00

Photos - the previous post

i'm so glad that my laptop worked

i dropped it on the floor
and the 'BANG'
left me fresh and awake
and damn bloody hell worried

good things come to end; always

2007-09-17T13:55:00.000+08:00

PHOA
my class damn cool
quite a number of smokers
n the guys aint that quiet
hahas
the guys are cute!

i should be sleeping at home
but i'm actually sitting
here in a new class
in school
wtf

i think i'll like my class
i suppose
HAHAS

going back track

15.09.07

went clubbing with pat
phuture+zouk

phuture's not bad
but the music they played
is abit... erm....

they do have nice songs

but

they played songs like
'you're beautiful...'
bloody hell, u tell me,
how to club with this type of songs???

so pat n i ended up
looking like drunkards
we were swaying our body
like some stupid shit

n he went knocking the wall
continuously
FUCK

my feel got blisters again
becos of my 'chanel shoe'
n i wonder how m i going to ever wear that pair again...
tell me....

aint going to club that often
maybe once a month
i feel that i'm going old
when i'm only 16 going 17

alright photos the next post

n that patrick fuckingly joked with me again
with the same joke
-,-

thinking twice

2007-09-15T03:22:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking of either

changing a part time job
or holding 2 at the same time

i'm thinking of going back nihon mura too

but i'm having doubts

OH God pls help me

lots of misses and everything

2007-09-14T17:34:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK

from tpy
LOL

basically this 3 days is about
sleeping
watching movie/tv
eating

that's it
n sleeping took more than 70% of the time
n i hasnt been sleeping well
=(

we caught 881
not bad
but i still want to watch Ratatouille!
Lol

when the earthquake happened in spore,
we were in the cinema watching movie
we missed the earthquake!

you know, i've nv experienced earthquake before
wat a waste!

i miss onlining!
i miss my laptop!
hahas

New star: Chino

2 months old, 1.6kg
u can simply lift him up with a hand
but he's naughty
he bites!

n i know he loves my short
cus he cant stop bitting it

LOL

BUT I STILL PREFER MIKA THAN HIM
JONATHAN IS STILL MY BEST

you're getting on my nerves

2007-09-09T01:55:00.000+08:00

I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE
i've nv met anyone as irritating

the guy who i just got to know from wei leong's workplace, which is also my ex-workplace, is really getting on my nerves

B- him
C- me

the long long long story here it goes:
( i've edited his grammer, to enhance reading, but the meanings' still the same)

MSN
B: i'm very drunk
B: miss you
C: huh?
B: i'm not drunk
C: do u know wat u r talking about?
B: miss fren cannot meh?
C: oh, ok then

B: can i have ur number? so that i can invite you out the next time
C: u can always invite me through msn
B: we're friends mah...
[p.s. i jus saw him a few times, he added me in friendster, n asked for my email, thus i gave him my msn add]

C: wah i damn high
C: my results r out, n they are good, even through i skipped so many lessons
B: isit? buy u present, promise
B: but dont bully me hor
C: y u buy my present?

Then he got angry, over the stuffs between my boyfriend n i
seriously it has got nothing to do with him
[content not suitable for disclosure]

B: i used to be very bad, but i've changed alot
C: so?

B: i always fail in relationships
B: always hurt and cheated by girls, to me now, girls r just liars
C: hey, not all girls are the same
B: *talks about his past relationship*
C: * ya ya yahs*

His ex left him because of misunderstandings
he told me he spent around 2000 for her etc etc
i wonder if its true

B: now i cant sleep and i cant eat becos i quarrelled with a fren (girl)
B: she's petty
C: oh ok
B: what's girls thinking???
C: different girl thinks differently, because they have different characters
C: so u cannot say that the rest of the girls are liars after you've met 1 or 2 girl like this
C: and so, u will have to try to know a from the start
C: whenever you meet new ones and this applies to guys too

B: I AM FUGLY
C: no la, u look ok
C: normally, i do not look at the outer of a person, i look at the inner side

then he tells me that he's not afraid of death,
i think he's drunk
cos he sort of wants to fight with my bf
and also said that at most he'll die

and after much encouragments from me:

B: the first time i see you,
B: i really find you pretty and charming
C: -,- thanks anyway
B: dont tell the others, i'm shy
C: hahs, if i get drunk one day, maybe i'll tell him. i dunno

B: angel
C: wat angel?
B: you
C: i'm a devil
B: i love devil and wild
C: -,-

B: when's ur birthday?
C: 23rd Oct
B: oh, my friend's 25th
C: oh, ok lo, i also dunno ur fren -,-
B: he's going to open a 888 dollars chivas
B: i want to invite you
C: erm... but i dunno if i'm going to work on that day or not... we shall see
B: give me face la... i'm going to buy him a 300 dollars present
C: i cannot confirm with you now
B: we go drink on birthday too?
C: i might be holding a small meetout in zouk or something like that
C: invite a few frens to celebrate
B: inviting me?
C: sure, shouldnt be a problem

B: my fren's birthday, i just wan to make him happy
B: i bring you go
B: i wan to prove to my friend, that i can bring pretty girl come
C: see how la... i dunno

B: i envy your bf
C: oh isit?

B: muaks
C: muaks???

C: i wan to sleep le, i cant tolerate it anymore
B: can i have your number?

since he's been asking for many times, i gave
the msn conversation ended at 5:18am

and he called me almost immediately after i offlined

basically he just told me about his past as a 'gangster' in sarawak
watever shit and i wasnt listening either, i was too tired
he said he was stress and i told him i'm tired and sleepy

he made me chatted with him till 6, until his prepaid got no more money
and when the conversation was cutted off, he attempted to call again
but insufficient fund
LOL

i was tortured till 6am

3pm
went to the restuarant, as i'm supposed to meet my gf, hq, for buffet

after his work, he asked me to join him in pub with his friends

I TOLD HIM, ' DUNNO SEE HOW'

n he told his fren, that i'm going [fuck la]

then he tried very hard to persuade me into going:
messages he sent me:

B: i've already told my friend, if you dun go, he will say that i'm a liar and only knows how to boost

C: sorry i'm not going besides i dun feel like going too

B: my fren called me, he said he treat, we do not have to pay at all

C: its not the matter of money, i really dun feel like going

B: they are very friendly one. one of them even bringing his gf along, u can bring your fren along too

C: but not all of my friends are those type who will go pub and drink, most of my frens' not free anyway

B: i invite you, you never give face, i no mood liao
B: dont let me disappoint k?

C: i already told you, i dun feel like going and i'm not going

B: do you treat me as a friend? you can bring along another friend if you wan. we just wan to make more friend... now i need to pay him a bottle becos he say i lied to him and broke the promise

C: its not my business wat. i've never told you that i'm going.

B: i didnt say its your fault, but i hope you understand that we just wan to have fun, relax, and enjoy

C: of cos not my fault wat. i never said i wanted to go

B: i just feel very disappointed and sad. from the start you didnt want to go, and u didnt trust me, how to be friends when you dont trust me?

C: trust is something which you need to build between us, u cannot expect me to trust you right from the start

B: i'm a bad guy and wolf, dont trust me...

C: sigh... okok, i trust you i trust you ok?

i felt that i really had enough of his nonsense

then he called me, and his fren spoke
' erm, i'm his fren, are you coming?'
' i've already told him, i'm not coming down FOR SURE'

B answered, and started asking me wat m i doing etc etc...
i told him i'm sleeping and he said he heard someone beside me

WTF, someone beside me, not ur business k? WHO ARE YOU, SIR?

M I THAT STUPID TO GO DRINK WITH YOU AFTER KNOWING YOU FOR LIKE ONLY A FEW HOURS??? AM I THAT STUPID?

then he realised i'm angry

sent me countless of disgusting apologise messages

n he floods me in msn too

'friend i really dono how to face u.............i duno what i did wrong...'

'cyndee...please forgieve me..can ma?dont say irritated le can...all my fault..everybody will wrong...yes i am wrong...can u forgieve me?'

etc etc

he said he's in wrong but he dunno in which way he's wrong

not getting any replies from me, he turned to my frens, wl and hq

FUCKER, MY HANDPHONE INBOX IS FLOODED BY YOUR DISGUSTING MESSAGES

now i really feel like changing my hp number
i really feel like doing so

hey if u r reading this, THIS IS FOR YOU
WAKE UP LA, YOU R ALREADY 23 YEARS OLD LIAO...
FRIENDS IS NOT EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE OK?
YOU THOUGHT EVERYONE THINKS THE SAME AS YOU AH?
WE GOT BETTER THINGS TO DO OK?
I REJECTED YOUR INVITATION SO WAT?
NO BIG DEAL OK?
YOU INVITE, I MUST GO AH?
NO FRIENDS WILL DIE ISIT?
WE JUST KNOW EACH OTHER FOR LIKE A FEW DAYS, WE ARE NOT GOOD-FRIENDS-
YOU BETTER GET THE FACTS RIGHT

suit me no more

2007-09-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

I realised pink suits me no more
they dont look nice on me

and that pair of wedges i bought
suits me no more too
although it looked very nice on me

The blisters i got from the wedges
bloody painful
and thats de biggest blister i've ever got

Star of the day:

This is Wei Leong's new found love, Mika
this bitch is obedient
much more than Jonathan
$450 is too cheap for a pure 6 months old
the only flaw is that her size too big
7kg n i had a hard time carrying her around
fucking heavy

we walked the dogs for like some 3 hours
Jonathan was so tired
and so does Mika
All's tired

Wei Leong, remember to walk ur dog EVERYDAY

Holiday's too bored
sleeping at 5,6 or even 7.30am
basically sleeping, eating, watching tv, surfing net, chatting online, reading philosophy books in CHINESE- i have a hard time reading them, especially those chim characters which i've nv seen in 17 yrs of life

Then,
We found out that we got nothing better to do in the night and thus we did these.

i asked Pat if he missed home n i drew him a map home

our ex-class mate

Then he said he was hungry n missed my mum's curry chicken

Time when we did these lame stuffs : 5plus in the morning

is life always going to be this good?

2007-09-06T03:25:00.000+08:00

PHOA, damn high i tell u

this 2 days involving money very much

4th sep
shopped the whole day off with my girlfren

went PS, bugis, far east

WHOA VICTORIES:
3 TOPS
2 DRESSES
3 BOTTOMS
1 BAG
1 WEDGE

TOTAL: $250

WTH?!?!

luckily i do have a loving dad who sponsored me $150 for my expenses

so, i only spent 100 of my own money

the pair of wedge, caused bloody big blisters at my feet
i forgot to lotion it

my fault =(

5th sep
basically spent sleeping at dear's house

went AMK for dinner

1ST HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY:

DEAR FOUND MONEY SOMEWHERE NEAR HIS HOUSE

HE GAVE ME A 100
WHICH IS LIKE 40% OF WAT HE FOUND
=)

n i used it to pay off my debts, yea i own my mum money

DAMN LUCKY
DAMN SHIOK OK?

den watched rush hour 2 with dear, completed with a bowl of curry instant noodles
n tibits of course

dear commented that i'm getting fatter
n i agreed with it =(

2ND HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY:
semester's results out!

3.5 for all my modules
n needless to say GPA, 3.5

damn high la

reason for being high:
after i skipped so so so so many lessons for each module
i still managed to get B+, 3.5 for each module

WAHAHA

can i say i'm half a genius?
hahas

Tell me why? u tell me why?

2007-09-04T02:27:00.000+08:00

ALL HAVE FLAWS

who doesnt?

why isit that most people,
makes big deals
when they so happened to see
flaw(s) in a woman, (or girl)?

example, BEING FAT, being short etc etc

TELL ME
TELL ME WHY?

its not pretty much of a big deal

i mean, what's the big deal?
u dun have flaw(s) meh?

DO TELL ME, IF U REALLY DO NOT HAVE FLAWS

Nobody is perfect
and for godness sake, DUN tell me u're nobody

and of course,
if someone do point out about ur flaws,
n suggest that you should change for UR OWN SAKE

u jolly well do it
n of course, it must make sense to YOU before u decide to change for the better
dun follow blindly like a sheep
n take watever shit
that is given to you

cos u will probably land yourself in deep shit

TELL ME WHY
TELL ME WHY IT IS SO BORED?

i'm rotting bit by bit at home
basically i'm doing nothing by sleeping and surfing at home
not forgetting eating as well

but i'm going shopping wif von tml
PS n BUGIS
gonna be another day of great damages
to my pocket

i realised
i'll be in great debts if i buy that gucci wallet
so i conclude
i'll not be getting it
anyways

wednesday will be spent with my dearest
i cant wait for wednesdays!!!

next week's wednesday will be spent wif him as well
i'll be staying over night at his house

its been some time since i last did that

i love you

2007-09-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

i'm fine

really i'm fine

we will be fine

at least i believed so

'misses' all i'll say

2007-08-23T20:53:00.000+08:00

i miss him by my side

really i do

i do wished i could revert time

i miss the happy times

i miss the words and songs from him

i miss the goodnight kisses from him

i miss everything of his

i promise, i would treasure him if we still have the chance

greedy gut, would u give me de chance, give us de chance?

currently at my gf hse, half lying-sitting on her queen sized bed

tml they r 'party-ing' at my hse

lina, von, pat, stanley, DQ

its gonna be fun

n there'll be curry chicken

wish me good luck

i'm going to find him in an hrs time

help me up

2007-08-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

i find it hard to smile
i'm faking it out
and every single time i fake out a smile,
my heart ache

y do i have to fake it out

i really have a feeling that this time might be real

i'm feeling helpless n alone
alone out there

n fuck this feeling i hate it
n i really mean that i hate it

Pray: i'll get normal classmates the next time

2007-08-23T11:37:00.000+08:00

today is a bored day
although its de last day of sch

my leg hurts terribly
its all cramped inside
it just hurts terribly
FUCK

its hell to have mr wong in the team
its just like hell
his nonsense n nonsense n nonsense
r everywhere
n we just simply couldnt tolerate and understand his lame jokes

pls LORD, TAKE HIM AWAY

i feel disgusted
by his words, thinkings n actions

ok i better stop mentioning bout him before i vomit n die of dehydration

facts about singaporeans

2007-08-23T03:13:00.000+08:00

got this from friendster n i really find it quite true

1. Nite - Sleep with air-con; Day -Bathe with heater on

2. Day - Cannot Wake up; Nite - Cannot Sleep

3. Translation is needed between Singaporean Chinese and Mainland Chinese

4. Smell Of rubbish besides letterboxes; Rubbish inside Letterbox

5. Spore Chinese use different languages other then Chinese to communicate.

6. Sporean never like to vote, but like to complain

7. There are quite a number of rich/poor in spore - They have Car,Credit Card, CPF but no Cash and is liable to lots of loans

8. There are quite a few high-tech barbaric singaporeans -they know how to use state-of-the art equipment, 3g mobile phone and powerful computers but they dunno how to use a simple dustbin or a toilet

9. Half Sporeans rushed to buy Hellokitty, but the other half busy killing stray cats

10. Chewing Gum - Can Chew, Cannotbuy?? (Restricted to buying)

11. Cigarettes - Convenient to buy;not convenient to smoke

12. Private Cars - Cheaper and Cheaper to buy, harder and harder to Maintain

13. Public Bus - Half the Crowd squeeze in front section of the Bus, Second section is for Carrying Ghost

14. Education - Teachers teaching Less but expects students to learn More

get a life; my life's getting too bored

2007-08-23T02:56:00.000+08:00

its 3am now
cyndee hasnt been sleeping normally
and
i doubt i can sleep tonight
after a heartbreaking quarrel wif him, again
cried
n i dunno if we were to continue
he returned me my clothes at his home
i guess we might be at the verge of breaking up

had a long day
went to his hse at 10
continued sleeping till 2
went to wheelock, to settle his phones batteries
you know, nokia's doing something to a batch of batteries
that particular batch of batteries could actually explode, easily

made sure his batteries r working fine,
went to wisma atria for beef noodles
mummy said that it's much more delicious than bugis's

i would say that the noodles and beef are indeed better
but the soup base was not

then went over to pasir ris to meet leong n gang
to book chalet

was tired after a day,
went to his house
slept
ate
quarrelled

i left his house n felt like chatting wif someone
called pat
shockingly realised that
WE WERE LISTENING TO THE SAME SONG, AT THE SAME VERSE
wth

bought a packet of cigarettes
smoked 2 sticks n felt unwell
its been sometime since i last smoked, i turned a social smoker

tml's last day of semester
happy or sad
shall leave it to fate
but i really pray to God that
please do not give me those types of abnormal classmates again

bloody hell
this feeling in me now is really very unbearable
i hate it

wahaha

2007-08-22T03:48:00.000+08:00

here's a funny one- the day i went dinner n movie with Pat, i said this countless times

Me: ' eh i want to take ur photo'
Pat: ' Why? dowan la'
Me: ' i wan to send it to ur parents'
Pat: 'WAT?!?! WHY?!?!'
Me: ' den i would tell ur parents this-' i have ur son in hand, i wan nothing much, 100 bucks will do', and ur parents would reply ' wat?!?! only 100 bucks??? i give you 100 million, help me get rid of him' HAHAHA'
Pat: '!!! wat the fish??? -.-"

its really very funny when u see Pat's expression

that's how bloody lame i can be

sometime, life's like this -we cant really help it

2007-08-22T03:45:00.000+08:00

its my first post of this blog

this bloody piece of shit took me like 3-4 hours
i feel that i do sound like yvonne nowadays
cant help it

i know my blog's damn plain
but that's how i wan it
nobody shall comment on it =P

its 2:35am now n i'm coughing like mad, out of the sudden
n kellie's very disturbed by me

earlier on, it was damn bloody hell bored
n i could not help it by feeling bored
n so happened that Pat came to chat wif me on msn
thus i vented my boredness on him
"i'm feeling damn bloody bored ah"
for the WHOLE night or at least a few hours,
this sentence have been coming up

it was enterprise last lesson that day
everything went fine
n i got my A
i'm really very thankful to haliza,
although it seemed that the whole class doesnt prefer her
but she gave me all As!

after lesson,
went Pat's home to put his belongings
his house is bloody big
and his room's bloody messy
i must say that even through my room's messy, but not as much as his
he treated me a bottle of hooch,
found in his fridge

its really bloody cool when ur parents not wif u
its like
u can bring frens home whenever u like
or jus stay outside the whole bloody night
without a single call from ur family

it means total freedom
bloody cool pat

brought Pat to nihon mura n treated him dinner
y the bloody hell i treat him? why m i so good? u tell me...
cos that time we went MOS, he encouraged me a fair bit to approach bruno for his damn no.
not forgetting lina's too
afterwhich i regretted getting the damn number
i was hurt
by my own pinned hopes

so to repay this 'favour'
i treated him
n the whole meal costed like some 13 bucks, after using dear's voucher =)
we were utterly full
WOWS for the soft shell crabs- awesome
n i cant believe that we missed the strawberry oreo ice cream

went for 'secret' at AMK Cathy, our 2nd time watching the same movie
he paid
n bloody hell we got couple seats
we 'fought' during the movie
since we have already watched it once, its no surprise that we were playing during the movie and i hope that we werent making too much noise

met dear after movie at tpy
he was unwell, so we had supper before i went back

he's been saying that Pat's my part-time bf
ridiculous- i would say

i skipped sch again today- the last lesson for science
firstly first, i'm sleepy- i couldnt get myself up for sch, thus, forget it
secondly, i heard from alvin in my class that science's difficult
i wouldnt want to go to, contribute nothing but noise, n get myself a C
its a total waste of time

thus
i spent the whole day sleeping like a hog
woke up at 4
ate lunch
brought my dog for the implant of microchip
my heart ached when i saw him in agony although it only lasted for awhile
but he was fine afterwards- hey tt's my dog, good boy-
went marina parade for dinner with family
i must say that the bonding between them n me is bad, seriously bad
my sisters n i were using words to provoke each other
it can be fun sometimes
but its not when i'm at the losing end
damnit

tml's going to be a great day i hoped
skipping school (again) to dear's hse
den to downtown east to book chalet wif leong

n that idiotic leong called me lu hua in friendster again
wth